and this is a hard goodbye

and this is a hard

goodbye,

leaving my first

at a hotel

i have to be in room 806 at 4:00

to depart for basic training

he'll be away ten weeks

no phone

no texts

no tweeting or rewteeting

and

i'm afraid i won't 

know

him

again

what fears have you faced with your children?

linking with  kelli, laura, jen, jennifer, barbie, sharita

what made me cry on senior night

i didn't cry when
he came off the practice field
to line up with us,
this seventeen-year-old
guitar-playing
athlete
i didn't cry when
the cheer coach handed
me a rose to lay across my arm
i didn't cry when i
showed my son how to give me
his arm
and
i didn't cry when the announcer
said
hank privette
escorted by
chris and kendal privette
the tears arrived when i realized
that one of the guys
didn't have his mom
she.didn't.show.up.
i was at once incensed
and
in action,
asking the assistant principal to stand-in
but
how many times in seventeen years
have i been
physically present
yet
distant all the same
reading, working, cooking, talking
not.showing.up.
we're called to this, moms,
all.in.
whatever you do,
do all to the glory of God

how about you? do you ever get angry at an injustice only to realize you've basically done the same?

continuing to count his gifts to 1000-

810. new recipes
811. coaches who teach skills and respect
812. running a new route on a cool, fall morning
813. electricity
814. nieces and nephew hiking to the big rock
815. students who try hard
816. husband tells sons he's proud of them

linking with -

michelle for hear it monday, use it on sunday, ann for 1000 gifts, l.l. for on, in, and around mondays

joan for sharing his beauty, laura for playdates with god, elaine for miss elaine-ous monday, jen for soli deo gloria shanda for on your heart tuesdays and kat for titus 2 tuesdays