Change and I are not on friendly terms. I find her sneaky, unrelenting and bossy. I tried to change alarm clocks a couple of years ago - thought I would like to have one that plays CDs??? I lasted two sleepless nights. Could be a trust issue.... My mother-in-law bought me a new vacuum cleaner in July, but the first time I used it I wept. Seriously. Should have had a mop in the other hand. Not because I didn't love the gift, but because it was a change. I don't rearrange furniture. I don't change my bulletin boards at school for years. My refrigerator and freezer are covered in pictures because I don't want to take old ones down. Is there a name for this disorder?
So what does August look like for me? Two major changes. Sigh. Short version of a long story - Chris and the boys and I left our church for another. It was a long time coming and a difficult decision. One I fought. I knew God wanted us to move. I knew it was the right thing to do, but I could not fathom leaving my church of fifteen years. The one in which my boys were born and baptized. We worshiped one last time at Wilkesboro Baptist on Sunday and will join the congregation at Celebration next week.
And...I'm changing grade levels this school year. From 8th to 7th. Big deal, you might say. Well, reader, to me it is. I will work on a completely different wing with different people and different curricula (I teach two subjects.) I've made some great friends on the 8th grade hall and will miss them immensely. I'll see them on occasion, but not to the extent to which I am accustomed. Bright side? I will be working with awesome teachers and these people grind their own coffee!
I am aggrieved and challenged, to say the least. I think about the positives - living in God's will and getting to know new people. Grace. Good health. This is a prayer for myself, that I will handle life's changes with grace and good health. And I'll get my mopping and vacuuming done at the same time for as long as it takes to accept the new upright. Eureka!
Linking up with Emily at Chatting at the Sky for Tuesdays Unwrapped.
Love your writing! There are so few things in the world that cause you to rely on God's sovereignty the way a major life change does! That is when we realize that we really control so little in our lives...how cool that everything in our lives is filtered and given to us through His loving hands, and that He empowers us to do what He has called us to do!
ReplyDeleteChange does that to me, too. I resist it. But I've found that the Lord has much better things right around the corner if I'll only follow Him in the change. You're going to be a great 7th grade teacher. And your new church will bless you and you them.
ReplyDeleteWhile I tend to embrace change when it comes to the small things the large life changes you mentioned would be challenging even for me. As a former junior high teacher I know how much difference the one year makes, and as for leaving a church after fifteen years, I can't even imagine. What I do know is that when trusting God, all good things will come.
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On the other end of this change there will be wonderful things... because you are listening. You are trusting GOD. Beautiful! :)
ReplyDeleteChange is scary for me to. Next year I am leaving a career I have known for 12 years to move into greener pastures. But it sounds like God is walking with you on this road, so there is nothing to fear. :)
ReplyDeleteI hear you sister -- change is really hard for so many of us. I am undergoing transition at work, and I am chafing beneath the change!
ReplyDeleteI have to say, I laughed over the fact that you wept over a new vacuum cleaner. I think I would weep for joy -- I hate mine!
I hope you'll not be so stressed about these changes that you can't enjoy the blessings sure to arrive with them!
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I can't remember who said it...the only people who like change are babies with dirty diapers! Love you!
ReplyDeleteThose are two major changes! Hang in there!
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ReplyDeleteI read this yesterday , btw, and as someone who doesn't like change either I so get you!
what a sweet and sincere post. It is nice learning more about you, your life and your heart. Bless you today, Kendal.
ReplyDeleteThose are two major changes! Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteI hear you sister -- change is really hard for so many of us. I am undergoing transition at work, and I am chafing beneath the change!
ReplyDeleteI have to say, I laughed over the fact that you wept over a new vacuum cleaner. I think I would weep for joy -- I hate mine!
Love your writing! There are so few things in the world that cause you to rely on God's sovereignty the way a major life change does! That is when we realize that we really control so little in our lives...how cool that everything in our lives is filtered and given to us through His loving hands, and that He empowers us to do what He has called us to do!
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