Thursday, November 18, 2010

and yet

So, ummmm, there's a chance that I worry too much. Last night, driving home from church, I heard the death rattle in my car. It was coming from underneath and both sides. It changed as I braked and accelerated. Like the tell-tale heart, its sound rose to a crescendo as I turned onto our dirt road. And I went through all the scenarios - me, alone, on a dirt road, attacked by coyotes before anyone can get to me. Or, I make it home but we have to buy a new car and we can't afford one and I have to ask the administrators if I can ride the school bus to and from work.

Just one example. And much less serious than my other worries. Beth Moore said in her Esther study, "If __________, then God." Fill in the blank. Everything fits. There is nothing bigger than God. He's proven it over and over again in scripture and my life. And yet.

The death rattle? A stick.

Linking up with Emily for imperfect prose on thursday.


  1. I do this too! Just the other night my husband was out of town and I heard a noise outside and my mind took off running with all the possibilities. Sometimes I think that my mind is my worst enemy!

  2. ha! this cracked me up ... especially the Poe reference.

  3. you and me, sister! I am with ya! Worrying like a crazy person!

    I am going to check out your book. It looks like we have a similar background.

  4. Hahaha - those sticks can be a menace you know.

    Love how you can always see the lesson in the mundane Kendal :-)

  5. If I was near your dirt road - you could have my car for a while.

    And it's only a splendid writer who can hear a noise under the car and think "tell tale heart"

    But you left out:
    a random tornado,
    a pack of wolves
    a Scooby Doo ghost
    a bear attack
    a bear and wolf attack

    You see - I go there too

    I've been there already today - and you know what - today - because you wrote this - I am not going there again all the rest of the day.

    Thank you Kendal.

  6. lol... well, this was profound and funny at the same time. that is talent, dear friend. i'm going to practice saying this to myself: "if__ then God." thank you. beautiful post.

  7. Thank you for this. I worry too much! Love the Beth Moore quote!