going to have to hold my nose

i was hoping

fall

would smell better

this year

once upon a time

it smelled

like love in the air

and

football games

and

cookouts

and

college

and

kids jumping in leaf piles

i was hoping

fall

would smell better

this year

but honestly?

for five years

it's smelled

like

exercise

restriction
purging

lying

losing weight

losing self

i was hoping

for

different

Linking up with Emily for imperfect prose on thursdays....