Wednesday, February 16, 2011

shopping trip?

short-lived crisis - a pair of pants
did.
not.
fit.
which means i've gained
weight
and this
messed
with
my
head
old ed*
he started feeding
me the familiar lines
eat less
run more
lose
lose
lose
but
holding the secret
and
dropping the weight
has lost its
luster....
and
i decided i would
rather
have mint oreos and new pants
than
a date with
ed

*ed - eating disorder

what speaks to you? tries to draw you back in?

end-of-week links:

emily for imperfect prose
tiffani for word women wednesday
bonnie at the faith barista for the faith barista jam
christy for as of late
beki at the rusted chain for fingerprint friday
michelle for caffeinated randomness
studio jru for sneak peek friday
jennifer v. davis

39 comments:

  1. That's great that you have come so far. Yay mint oreos. ::hugs::

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  2. I know familiar lines...and I don't like them. happy you choose the oreos over ed...:)
    xo

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  3. i am so glad. oh, how you are wisdom and beauty to me.

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  4. holding the secret
    and
    dropping the weight
    has lost its
    luster....

    I cheer with you the illusion shattered; healing real.

    Oh dear, what speaks to me? Too many things--the perfectionist syndrome...the lies of lazy; spoiled; lowsy wife and mama that call me back to the tread-mill of righting it all and self-doubt...by His grace, victories are more prevalent and the hound is tied up;)

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  5. smiles...good job kicking ed to the curb...oreos are the bomb!

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  6. I'm really glad that I read about you over at Amy's awhile back so I could fully appreciate this. I like the ending best :)

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  7. Yay! Great choice going with new pants and the oreos. :)

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  8. FEAR...Fear is what threatens to take over when ever I let loose of taking my thoughts captive! Thanks for sharing this!!!

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  9. i just read your newest post. wow. and prayers for you from here.

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  10. Praise God for mint Oreos and new pants and a heart that hears only the voice of her Good Shepherd! Girl, you've got me believing that He truly does make all things new!

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  11. Praises for you, and Him, in encouraging you to turn ed on his head. Mint oreos, any oreos, are just too darn good to give up!

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  12. I really love this post...your word arrangement makes me think. Good stuff. I heard a line in a song on the way home that made me think by FM Static:
    I stopped lying when i believed myself
    Cause i stopped tryin
    If there was no way out
    Faith is just the other end of doubt
    Your truth is gonna make it alright

    Blessings! RQ

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  13. Oh Kendal, I love that you are so sharing about mr. ed. He is a stinky monster isn't he? But you and God have uprooted him, he has no power over you anymore beautiful girl. My thing may not be ed, but I certainly wrestle with thoughts that are not upright. Whatever is true, right, and lovely...think on these...what God is doing through you (as you give ed a swift kick in the booty) is beauty, right, lovely and true at it's best. Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable, here for you girl, anytime.

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  14. Good for you! We make choices. You are inspiring.

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  15. You heard Him when it was most important...when the speaker of lies was trying to bring you back to captivity with his words. Isn't this attempt at captivity true for us all, just in different ways? Your boldness speaks volumes and brings glory to the One who is worthy.

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  16. I'm so glad the oreos won out! What tries to draw me in? Shopping. Definitely. The thought that I "need" something that I absolutely do not.

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  17. Jamie/penguinsandladybugsFebruary 17, 2011 at 11:32 AM

    very good! Thanks for sharing!!! I so relate!!!!

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  18. What's not to love about new pants? So glad you hear ed's lines for the lies they are!

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  19. hahhaha. I can SOOO relate to this. I've been thinking about it as I've gotten older. As the ED doesn't have the exact same hold on me. I think it's squeezing me, hard, because it wants me to pay attention, but I keep thinking "I'm better than this. I"m beyond this." Love your entry today. :)

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  20. What a wonderful victory! And new pants? Sounds like a good thing to me.

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  21. I add my AMEN to your victorious choice! And mint oreos? Yes!

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  22. Oh Kendal- that is a true victory for you!
    Celebrate with those Oreos and new pants :-)

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  23. i love this chain of words, your climb, your success. if i were there, i'd share a cup of joe and some oreos with you! xo

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  24. This is awesome, Kendal. In so many ways. And, realized that I didn't follow you -- so sorry. It's so far down on the blog, I just missed it. Anyway, following now, friend!

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  25. What a victory! ed has not been my struggle, but I've had others over the years that have sold me on lies. Enjoy your oreos and new pants!

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  26. Isn't that the truth...whether it's ed or something else that speaks to you and draws you back...Thanks for your transparency and prose!

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  27. Kendal what a testimony to how far you have gone. I'm so happy for the oreos and new pants. Thank you again for your beauty and grace.

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  28. on the Hobby Lobby thing ... evidence ... you don't miss, what you never had ... a nice reminder

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  29. oh, yay kendal! so good! so good. this makes me sing.

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  30. Beautifully Written! What A Courageous Testimony Sweet Friend!

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  31. Such a great poem! As a former gymnast, I met 'ed' through many of my friends. He didn't draw me in, but Mr. Insecurity likes to knock at my door at least weekly. I wish he'd go away.

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  32. This is beautiful Kendal. Most in the way that you defeated ed. I know each victory must feel just like the first and leave you feeling stronger.

    Enjoy those oreos ;)

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  33. Love your poetry, beautifully written. Thanks for sharing.

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  34. Beautifully written!

    I'm your newest follower :-)

    Love,
    Traci @ Ordinary Inspirations
    http://www.ordinaryinspirations.blogspot.com

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  35. I read your comment to Em, re your brother.
    I cannot imagine.
    Please give him a little love from a stranger.

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  36. thanks, deb. although the death was an unexpected freak thing, my brother and his wife are doing amazingly well. ,strong faith. strong family.

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  37. Geez. Girl. You can tell a story and stun us with beauty in poetry...

    " he started feeding
    me the familiar lines..."

    This speaks... wowee... this is a double shot of faith, fer sure. Thanks so much, Kendal!

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